Marta and Nico get back on Thursday. In the time that they’ve been gone, I’ve had a lot of people ask me if I miss them. Some people just assume I miss them and say, “Man it must be hard.”
It is hard. I talked to Nico and Marta on Skype and Nico holds up her foot for me to see and all I want to do is squeeze it. I watch Marta talk and think how nice it would be to share a bed with her again. In other words, I miss their physical presence in my life. And, in the case of Nico, I miss witnessing to the way she changes and grows.
I notice some of it, of course. She now uses certain Spanish interjections and conversational words with ease. “Vale,” she says nonchalantly when I ask her to show me something (Vale means OK in Spain). She also likes to throw around the words “Tambien” (also” and “Tampoco” (Neither/either) with a native accent. It’s adorable, but also makes me feel a little estranged from her. How could she go on developing when I’m not there to see her grow?
Mostly, though, this month and a half has been really good for me. I’ve written a lot and read a lot. I am beginning to publish more work. I also feel more grounded in my professional life and have a better sense of what I need to do to foster that life once Nico and Marta return. So, while I missed them bucketloads, I am also really appreciative for the time to work. And I am super grateful to Marta for giving me that time. While I’ve been sleeping through the night and writing and working in peace, she’s been Nico’s sole caregiver, a job that was quite hard at times (though Nico has loved Spain, all the traveling and all the changes have also made her a lot more clingy: she basically doesn’t let Marta out of her sight).
As I get ready for them to come back home this week, I’ve been looking at some recent photos of Nico and Marta (and me) and I thought I’d share them with you all. I promise more current ones once I get those two darlings back in my clutches: